Of every vision gifted, and every message received, none compare to the profound impact this one had upon me, both in the moment and ongoing.

Visions are not rare for me. Neither are the messages that swirl around & weave in between my thoughts, clearly distinguishable from any curation or creation of my being in this life.

September 21st, 2022.

This vision came as I lingered on the liminal edge of sleep and waking.

As I lay in bed, sunbeams begin to kiss my cheek and there is a presence I know all to well.

Familiar, loving & wise beyond anything of this world.

Soft pastel colours glistening with opalescent light begin to fill my eyes and a loving hand guides me, my hand but a fraction of the size of theirs yet I felt so safe, safer than ever before.

Soft & strong words passed lips that did not move, a hand gestures towards a scene below through parted clouds.

What seemed to be souls, represented as moving spheres of light, are streaming through narrow yet ornate gates, each dancing their way across an illuminated path.

As the spheres draw closer to the crystal city, a palace of light and sound, chorus streams from the clouds, joy, love and elation moving through song, taking form in curved currents, symbols & shapes.

The angel standing beside me speaks through my being, speaks through my senses, I can feel their words and know the meaning & the depth of what is taking place.

“ This is the mission, this is the purpose…

Bring as many home as possible.

Feel the mission in your being, know what it feels like for these souls to come home…

Know your place in the mission, your role & responsibility.

Dwell not in the sorrow of those who are lost,

Feel the joy for all those who have and will be retrieved.”

I could not speak, no sound would pass my lips.

My heart ached, ached with the experience of feeling a love so big, so encompassing that I could only cry with awe & gratitude.

To be so loved, to be so cared for.

To feel that love, care and the sheer elation of our return.

I spent this day completely silent, tears softly rolling down my cheeks and kissing the earth.

I had no idea how far this vision would extend, nor how it would continue to touch my heart, guide my choices and be the flame illuminating my path when I felt so conflicted & seemingly lost.

September 22nd, 2023

My dad passed.

So suddenly, so unexpectedly

Gone from this life.

All those years of devotion to learning about, refining and expanding my gifts, all those years working with some of the best energetic mentors of this age… nothing could have prepared me for that moment.

A pain I cannot describe washed over me and an emptiness that seemed eternal opened within the core of my being. My heart ached of my family, for my stepmum, my siblings, my dad’s twin brother, my nana, my mum… so many people loved my dad, he touched so many hearts through his life.

Then my breath caught, his spirit left in such an unexpected and traumatic way, in that moment I knew my role, I knew my responsibility… to pray, to pray with undivided clarity & purpose, to help support my father’s spirit through this transitional space unhindered, completely supported and loved.

I prayed for hours, I sung songs to him, spoke to him, moved through visions playing across my minds eye, I cried and cried and cried but I never stoped praying.

Then I felt it, just before midnight, an opening like a pause in all eternity, a door opened, it breathed in and my dads spirit moved to another plane of existence.

I will never forget that stillness, how it washed over me or how it seeped into the air around me. A perfect peaceful stillness, in that moment everything was ok and I knew my dad was ok, the was safe, cared for and lovingly received.

The next morning my heart shattered, my spirit & soul went numb with the weight of reality.

I could not breathe, I could not move, I could not eat, think, speak, dream but I could cry and I did.

More than I have in all my days earth side.

Days, weeks & months past, the tears never stopped, the emptiness stayed, my mind felt barely operational. It was like I was watching my body moving & talking from a distance but I could not reach the controls, I was on the lowest function of auto pilot, barely operational.

My previously broad capacity had been reduced to a sliver.

But as months past, day by day, little by little, I slowly inched closer to the controls, closer to myself.

September 22nd, 2024

A years cycle complete, a year since my dad passed.

I dreaded this day, I had wished it would never come, wished I could close my eyes and let time stand still so I never had to face the reality of a year without him, but still that day came.

So I collected my heart with all the bravery I have & engaged with the day, enjoying the wonders of the ocean, the element my dad loved most.

A dear friend’s mum had offered for me to go kayaking with the whales, it just happened to land on that day I had dreaded.

Being on the ocean like that, with whales swimming all around & below us. Breaching, tail & fin slapping, guiding their babies through the bay, my heart sung & I smiled ear to ear, once again I felt alive, truely present and alive.

Something shifted in me that day, I had allowed myself to be broken & honoured the immense pain within yet I also found joy, I felt love, I was inspired and felt life flowing through my being again.

This day everything changed.

Day by day, little by little, I felt life return.

Light trickled into my cells and danced within me, spiralling up, through and out from the core of my being. Where that emptiness had once felt like a void, containing nothing and consuming everything, it now started to trickle out golden starlight. Its spin shifted from drawing in to flowing out, the light that emerged nourished me in every way I had desired and again I felt inspired to dream, to create, to again envision building a beautiful life for all.

I opened my notes ready to write after such a long hiatus.

There sat pined at the top of my notes app: The retrieval - September 21st, 2022

…

One year & one day before my dad passed.

One year & one day prior this vision was gifted to me.

Two years later and I clicked, I couldn’t believe it.

I triple checked, I kept my eyes on that date for what felt like eons, expecting it to change.

“Know your place in the mission, your role & responsibility. Dwell not in the sorrow of those lost, feel the joy for all those who have and will be retrieved”

Through this life I have seen many things, been gifted many visions, granted much knowing… this was something else, this is something new.

This could have only come from that deep, encompassing love, the love of a creator feeling the willing return of their children.

I know now, there is an encompassing, ever present love awaiting our recognition, awaiting our interaction.

That love is ever present, always surrounding us and it is our role & responsibility to let that love live within us, to give it a home within so it has roots to grow here on earth.

This is what it means to have heaven on earth, this is the divine purpose and original intention of humanity.

I have known this since my formative years but only now grasp the living knowing of what that feels, looks and sounds like in a tangible embodied sensory knowing.

I pray that you too can know through your senses just how loved you are. To know just how much support is waiting for you to devote your life to being your own authentic expression of heaven on earth. To let all that is innately inspirational to you live through you and be a living example of possibility, inspiring others to also live with their hearts wide open, inspired and flowing into their own lives in the most beautiful way.

In everything I create it is my prayer, my wish and my hope that I be able to assist you in stepping closer to that relationship of knowing within yourself.

That you too can rest in the knowing that you are loved and supported by a force so much bigger than the finite structures of this world.

I pray you know that love, I pray you are inspired to create from that love and that your heart can live in that freedom of knowing.

…….

How wide can you expand the vision.

How far can you extend the dream

Allow your faith to drive your experience, give fear to the fire, give doubt to god, tell the beloved of all your dreams, visions, desires and need, let yourself be cared for.

Allow the support to come through for the mission.

With love Always,

Sarah 🪽

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